Trying to forget what is done. Learning to forgive someone. Missing those happy memories. Struggling to back my old self. Seeking for the true happiness. Making an effort to fix what is broken but the things will never be the same again. Learning to accept what already done in the past.
I miss those days that I can I laugh without pretending, those days when my smiles are still real. But all I can do now is missing those days. I’m disappointed to myself because I change a lot, I’m not the same anymore. I thanked god that I’m not that weak as before but sadly I become cold person. I become strong person, I can fight with my own problems alone, I’m doing all my best just make my parents proud but they only see my mistakes. Every day, I chose to hide what I really feel because I know that no one cares. As I changed, I lost myself. Now, I have the opportunity to correct all my mistakes.
I don’t care who I lose anymore as long as I’m not losing myself again. I want to become a better version of me; mature. I let the lord guide me for what is my future and guide me for the decisions I made.
I think I can relate. I feel like I kinda lost a part of me. That there's something missing in me. But still, I can bring my self to smile. You can do the same Nico. You can be your better self again coz you're letting Him to guide you.
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